Monday, December 13, 2010

Grizzly Grief

This bear had a very hard time shining today.  I was too sad.  But, you know, a flashlight can't shine if it's got a bunch of gunk blocking its light.  So, I let myself cry it out for the better part of the day.  I looked at some of my friends' journals on the caringbridge.com and cried some more.  I did the dishes and sang "At This Moment" (which is the saddest song I know) and cried.  Then I was exhausted from crying, so I took a walk outside.  And I realized that one of the bad things about missing someone is the change it has made in your life.  Now, I hate change.  I'm always wishing things could be as they were.  That's just one element of grief, but it seemed like one I could at least do something about, facing this fear of change.  And so I thought I would try adding a new Christmas tradition to my life, something I hadn't done before.  For me, it was snow ice cream.  It might be hard to believe, being in the mountains and all, but I'd never made snow ice cream, and my cubs had never had it.  Let me tell you:  it is awesome.  And it made me feel a little better.  I will always miss the old, but new isn't so very bad.  Wish I could have them both, but that's just not the way it works this side of heaven.  Here's some other new traditions you might try, if you've never done them:

  • a Christmas plant like paperwhites or amarylis or any type of bulb really, or a Christmas cactus
  • add Kwanza or Hanukkah traditions to your celebration 
  • some other kind of food you might have never had; figgy pudding?  
  • some new Christmas music - you can download some songs free at Target.com
If you are grieving or feeling abandoned at this time of year, know that you're not alone.  And you don't have to have someone die to be grieving for the loss of them in your life.  If things are really bad, reach out.  Find more tips here:  http://griefnet.org/library/coping.html

Sunday, December 12, 2010

A Beary Nice Thought

A bear can get depressed this time of year.  I think of all the Christmases when I was a cub, how we didn't worry about food or clothes.  We had plenty of room in our homes and hope in our hearts.  The Grandpaws were still alive and the lights in the Granny Bears' eyes were bright.  The future seemed so bright there was even a song about it.  Little did we know...  But I have to remind myself that this is really an opportunity to see that the only thing eternal that we can cling to is God.  And this is his birthday.  He came to Earth as just another child born into a poor family, a nobody.  An he taught us that in the coldest, darkest times of our lives, we can shine the brightest.  Find a way to shine this week.

The Dainty Den

How does a bear make the most of her den when it is smallish?  I think that my sister, Honeybee, makes the most of her surroundings.  I don't have a scanner, or I would draw a picture of her den and post it.   However, the picture here comes close.  Our homes are very similiar but the thing to keep in mind here is that she has four cubs! So, the twin beds here are actually two sets of bunk beds.  Three of her cubs sleep in there, and baby bear will join them in a couple of years.  Baby sleeps in the master bedroom, to the left of Honeybee and her hubby.  They have bins that slip under the beds for additional storage.  Both bedrooms also each have a chest of drawers near the closets.  Cozy!

Saturday, December 11, 2010

The Beary Perfect Christmas Stocking

All for  under $10.  I got this at the Target dollar section near the front door, but you could get the same stuff for the same price at The Dollar Tree.

Santa Hat or Stocking (we have stockings, I thought I'd do hats)
box of mini chocolate Santas
peppermint twist lollipops
wooden vehicle or rubber toy (I got the boys either a bus, a firetruck, or an airplane.  I got the girls each ice cream trucks b/c they were pastel. I got a rubber, squeaky Christmas tree for the baby.)
a board book for the little ones or small calendar for the older ones
lip balm in holiday flavors
a pair of winter gloves / mittens or a hats
a pack of silly bands

I think they'll love it.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Bear Family Adventures

Get some paper and crayons and have your kids make a couple of Christmas cards.  Make one for Granny Bear and one for a recovering soldier.  Send the second one to:  A Recovering American Soldier, c/o Walter Reed ArmyMedical Center, 6900 Georgia Avenue, NW Washington, DC 20307-5001. 

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

What's A Bear To Wear?

Sometimes what keeps a bear from going to church or to a holiday party is that they feel like they don't have anything appropriate to wear. I say that maybe they are too hard on themselves. For the ladies, I think that just a red sweater and some black pants work fine. Black shoes if you've got 'em, they don't have to be fancy. A long necklace flatters most anybody.  If you can talk the significant other into attending with you, most places are happy just to see him in a collared shirt. I like a man in flannel. Clean jeans and clean shoes. Boots would look good with the flannel. Same for the boy cubs. I always think a boy looks cute dressed up like his daddy. For your girl cub, I say dress her up for as long as she'll let you. Most of the Thrift Stores around here don't have a lot of kids' clothes, but I can usually find a dressy dress. Sometimes I can only find dresses that look Springtimey, but I can still keep baby girl warm by putting a long sleeve t-shirt under it and tights or leggings and socks. The one thrift store around here has a lot of shoes, but if I can't find shoes for my kids there, I go to the consignment shops. I've found that the clothes and other things at the consignment shops are overpriced, but their price for shoes is usually reasonable.  Any kind of Mary Jane style shoe with the strap would be good.  Don't worry about the whole rule of no white after Labor Day, that's old.  Just keep in mind, God doesn't care what you wear.  You dress up when you go to church to show that you think it's an important and sacred place.  And you dress up for a holiday party for the fun of it and to feel good about yourself.  You don't have to be perfect.  You just have to be you.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

A Beary Nice Thought

Today is church day in bear woods, and whether you are going to attend a religious institution or not, I want you to know this: give yourself a new beginning. Think of all the people who hurt you, but still you wake up every morning, forgiving them, giving them a second chance, or a third, or a fourth, or a five-hundredth. You need to do the same for yourself.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

The Bear Family TV Night

It is cold and wet outside, which means us bears like to hibernate.  I know many humans who feel the same way.  Luckily we have televisions in our lairs.  Oh, you didn't know that?  Well, we do.  Just the basic line up though.  Digital cable has not yet reached the woodlands.  My favorite pick for a family movie on TV tonight is "Evan Almighty" which is on at 8 pm on CBS.  Steve Carell plays a modern day Noah. If you would prefer a sporting event, UConn takes on USF at 8 pm on ABC.  I'm rooting for USF; I have a cousin in Cali.  When it was just me and the Mr. Bear, we liked Sci-Fi fantasy shows, so we would've watched "Highlander: The End Game" on The CW at 8 pm.  A little too scary for cubs though.  After you put them to bed, there's a new episode of Saturday Night Live on at 11:30 pm on NBC.  Robert DeNiro is hosting and Diddy Dirty Money is performing.  Did you know Robert DeNiro was a werebear?  He is.

Friday, December 3, 2010

The Bear Stress Relief Kit

Take a deep breath Mowgli.  The Bear has some advice on the necessity of a portable stress relief kit.  You shouldn't have to buy anything to make one, just use some stuff you already have lying around.  And hide the kit from your kids.  Gotta love 'em, but they're probably the reason you're stressed out in to begin with.  First, you need a bag.  It could just be an old grocery bag, a beat up lunchbox, an old purse, a cosmetics bag.  I used a lunchbox that someone got for free at a health faire and gave to my kids.  Now you gotta put stuff in there that's going to tell all five senses that it's time to chillax.  Touch - put something in there that's nice to touch, soft.  I put in my blankey from when I was little.  And my sense of touch wants to feel like it's holding someone's hand, so I put a ball in there too.  A little stuffed animal would work as well, or a balled up pair of socks.  Sight - a candle is good.  I used one of those battery operated LED candles because I'm afraid of fire.  Anything relaxing like that is fine though.  I thought about using this little color changing plug in light that I have too.  If you use a real candle, you're going to need a lighter that little hands can't figure out how to work and a small plate to rest it on.  Smell - I think lip balm is great for this because you can get it in just about any nice smell you can think of.  I really like the smell of honey so I put in Burt's Bees honey lipbalm that I found at the bottom of my makeup bag.  Taste - Chocolate, of course.  I had some old, old sugar free chocolates in the back of the pantry.  A sandwich baggie of chocolate chips would work too.  Stress relief kit should not be out in the heat though.  Chocolate is like a warm hug, but you don't want warm sludge floating around your bag.  Sound - I think the best sound is Queen cranked up to 11 when I'm stressed, but we're going for peace here, and I don't have a portable music device to play, like, the sound of a Zen waterfall or something, so silence is the next best thing.  Cotton balls.  Ear plugs would work better, but I my baby keep trying to eat them, so they had to go.  So, now we've got the five senses, but we need a little help with the actual nerves.  I like some herbal tea.  As a bear, I really like the Sleepytime tea, but I already drank it all, so I had to use some Tension Tamer tea that I had.  Any chamomile tea would be good, that's all those two flavors of teas are anyway, and you can get that at the dollar store.  In fact, I think any tea at all would be good.  There's just something about tea.  Drink it hot with a little honey if you've got it.  If your nerves are really shot, you might need a little more help.  I have these colic tablets for infants that have more of the same stuff that was in the tea, plus stuff to quiet the butterflies in the belly.  If you don't have any of that, my granny always liked a little nip of something before bedtime, wine or whiskey, but make sure it's little or you'll get a tummy ache, and, remember, it's got to fit into your bag.  You could use a small babyfood jar and put a little dash of somethin', somethin' in there.  And, finally, you need a mantra to repeat over and over to really tell yourself it's going to be okay.  I like, "Be still and know that God is God."  Those things you can't change - there's Someone else in charge who can.  Let go.  There's more to this life than what we can see or understand.  Peace out!